Saturday, July 15, 2017

Welcome Ivy Elizabeth

We are thrilled to announce the arrival of Ivy Elizabeth. She was born on July 7, 2017 at 9:43am.  Our little girl weighed 7lb 10oz and was 19.5 inches long.  She has a head full of dark hair and has deep dark eyes already.  We are all in love with her.  I'll post more details later, but considering she is over a week old I thought we should probably at least post an announcement, and some photos.  Enjoy!




Ivy Elizabeth



Orion loves his little sister


Daddy is enamored 

Even her yawns are adorable.

Mom and baby in the hospital.

Orion's first time holding Ivy

Me with my kiddos.

I love her face so much.

I definitely love his too! 
My beautiful little family.


Thursday, July 6, 2017

Your Amazing Sis

Orion took the time to write his future little sister a letter.  I think it's incredibly sweet and I wanted to share it with you all.  I'll type out what he wrote below, and then attach pictures so you can see it for yourself:


On the outside of the envelope, he wrote "Your amazing sis!" surrounded by hearts and a smily face:


When I open up the letter, this is what is written: 


Dear ____,   (he actually put the name, but we aren't sharing that yet!) 
       I am sooo Iksidide (excited) to be your big brother. I just want you to come out.  I've wanted a sibling and I'll have you! 

From Orion




Monday, July 3, 2017

5 Worst Parts of Pregnancy

A couple of days ago I talked about my favorite things about being pregnant.  Today, I figured I should share the things about pregnancy that I do not enjoy so much.  In general, most of my complaints have to do with being uncomfortable, but I thought it would be worth sharing nonetheless. Why not?  

The worst parts of being pregnant for me:  
  • Pain in my tailbone & hips!  This time around, my tailbone and hips have hurt on and off from almost the beginning.  The sharp pains make sitting, standing, walking, and sleeping all a challenge and I just do not appreciate the consistent discomfort. 
  • Swelling!  I've been pretty lucky in that most of the swelling is not major, but it's still very uncomfortable to have my feet swelling to where my shoes are uncomfortable, or my hands swelling enough that I have to take off my jewelry.  No bueno! 
  • Heartburn!  Heartburn is the one thing in pregnancy that I just never get used to.  I've gone through more Tums than is probably healthy and find myself getting heartburn almost daily no matter what I eat or how hydrated I am.  It's super frustrating. 
  • Becoming public property.  I've talked about this off and on throughout both of my pregnancies.  While I love the pregnancy stories from other women, I hate the comments from strangers, the stares and questions, and the fact that there suddenly seems to be no boundaries between my privacy and the people I don't even know.  It drives me crazy.  
  • Being babied!  There are so many people who seem to feel that pregnant women are no longer adults who can take care of themselves.  I get very annoyed by people telling me that I can't do something, like lifting my own watermelon at the grocery store, simply because I'm pregnant.  I know my limitations, don't tell me I can't do something!! 

So those are my biggest complaints.  Knowing the experiences some women face, none of these complaints seem to be all that major at all! 

Sunday, July 2, 2017

Week 39

Welcome to week 39! Baby will officially be here by the end of this week.  It's hard to believe that we've finally made it.  And if it isn't crazy enough, we also have 4th of July this week and family will start showing up, with Aunt Jaime making her appearance on Wednesday.  I have a feeling this week is going to go very quickly.

For baby

Baby is officially considered full term!! Baby probably is somewhere between 19 and 21 inches long and weighs between 7 and 8 pounds, but we will know by this weekend.  The skin has changed from pink to white because the baby fat has been layered over the blood vessels, making baby squishy and cute.  It will also help baby maintain body temperature on the outside.

For momma:

I am officially ready for this baby to be here.  While I still feel pretty good in general, I'm sick of waiting and starting to get pretty impatient.  Luckily we have less than a week left before baby will be here.  I'm so happy my blood pressure and everything else has been completely fine throughout this entire journey.  My tummy is big enough that I'm uncomfortable, and baby coming out will be bittersweet, but I'm ready to meet them and share with the world. 

Saturday, July 1, 2017

5 Favorite Things about Pregnancy

In my life, I have heard a lot of women complain about being pregnancy and how miserable it makes them feel.  I honestly feel sorry for these women because while pregnancy can be difficult, I genuinely enjoy most of the experience.   So what are the best things about being pregnant?


  1. Feeling baby move: I absolutely love feeling the kicks and wiggles that happen daily, and interacting with baby in those moments.  It is the part that I miss the most once baby is born.  It is highly distracting, and there are definitely times when it hurts or is super uncomfortable, but it's one of the most entertaining and reassuring parts of pregnancy. 
  2. Excitement from my family:  I'm not someone who particularly enjoys a lot of attention or expects special treatment, etc.  However, being pregnant brings a level of excitement to my family that I love.  My sisters check in on how I'm feeling, Seth regularly does little things to take care of me, and even Orion has taken to giving my tummy hugs in the morning in addition to my hug.  I love seeing the excitement around me and I appreciate all their love and support. 
  3. Growing hair & nails:  My hair has grown so much and feels super healthy.  I'm sure half of it is the fact that I can't dye my hair, but my hair feels pretty good and is longer than it has been in probably 8 years.   The same can be said for my nails.  They feel stronger and have grown longer than ever.  I have also been able to not chew them, which is a huge deal for me as someone who has chewed my nails since I was 5 years old. 
  4. No menstrual cycle!  Probably way too much information, but not having to worry about having a period for 9 months is really, really nice.  I won't dwell on it, but I appreciate the break. 
  5. Entertaining dreams:  My dreams have always been super vivid and it gets even more intense while I'm pregnant.  While I don't appreciate the horrible nightmares I've had so far, I do completely enjoy the fun dreams that come along with pregnancy.  

Friday, June 30, 2017

Dr Appt - Week 38


This was my last appointment before my scheduled c-section.  I have less than a week to either go into labor naturally, or we're going in after baby.  It was a very short visit with nothing exciting happening at all.  We checked vitals, listened to baby, and sent me on my way.

My weight:  Up 1 lb from last week
Blood Pressure:  110/70
Temperature: Normal
Baby's heartbeat:   150


Now to spend the next week doing all the final preparations for baby, and waiting patiently for arrival.


Thursday, June 29, 2017

3 Things I'm Excited About

As we finish out the last several days of pregnancy, I did some searching for some writing prompts and I'm going to genuinely try to post one post a day from now until we have a new little one.  So today, I'm talking about 


3 things I am excited about

  • Meeting this new little person! 
    •  I know that seems like a "duh" response, but I'm so thrilled to meet the baby and learn the personality and quirks of a new human.  It should be interesting. 
  • Seeing Orion as a big brother!
    • Orion is the sweetest boy, hugging my tummy and giving his unborn sibling so much love already without even meeting them.  I can't even imagine how excited and loving he is going to be once baby is actually here to share his experiences with.  He already talks about sharing morning snuggles with baby, and how if they have a nightmare, they could come sleep in his room.  Even though they have separate rooms, he's also talked about them needing bunk beds.  I think it's adorable and I can't wait to share this experience with him.  I know just how much I love my sisters, and I am delighted that he will have a sibling to grow up with. 
  • Finding a new sense of normal! 
    • Pregnancy is this weird type of waiting where you spend 9 months preparing for the unknown and trying to do everything you can to be ready for a new little human to join your family.  It's stressful and exhausting to spend so long not knowing exactly what to expect, at least for me.  I look forward to baby finally arriving and finally getting the chance to set up a new routine that works for us and our changing family.  

Strangers and Pregnancy

In past posts, I've talked about how becoming pregnant suddenly makes you public property and my frustrations with that.  People feel that they are welcome to say whatever they want to you, giving unwanted advise and asking overtly personal questions, even going as far as feeling that it's ok to touch your body without permission.  It can be awful and uncomfortable, and as someone who is naturally introverted it makes me extremely uncomfortable.

However, this morning I realized just how much of a blessing it can be as well.  While there are rude and insensitive people, being pregnant can also bring out the most beautiful and personal parts of people as well.  During this pregnancy, I've found myself listening to the pregnancy and birthing stories from women all across the board.  My co-workers talk of their successes and issues while pregnant or giving birth.  I've listened to the sympathy from those who had rough pregnancies, and the joy of those who had amazing pregnancies.  I've heard birthing stories from strangers, and had random people stop and want to talk about my baby without knowing anything about me.  When I stop at the gas station on my way to work, the woman who works there often asks how much longer I have left. This morning I found myself listening to her birthing story from 16 years ago as she cashed me out.  I heard about the normal pregnancy of her first two children, and how she gained 70 pounds and had an 11 pound baby for her third.  I know these are stories that she doesn't share with just anyone, and it gives me both some insight into who she is, but it also builds a special bond between women to share those moments.

So today I am grateful.  While the invasion of privacy often frustrates me, I also understand the beautiful and amazing community bond that women feel with other pregnant women.  We look out for each other and want to share our stories.  We want to share our triumphs and our failures, and help others know that they are not alone in their experiences.  I'm thankful to each woman who has shared her story with me, and even those who wanted to share their advise.  Thank you for the kind smiles, the loving stories, the warnings and the laughter.  It's moments like this that I understand just how beautiful pregnancy can be.

Wednesday, June 28, 2017

Due Dates & Milk....no not that kind!

My due date is right around the corner.  I keep saying it's hard to believe, but sometime within the next 9 days I will officially meet this little person that has inhabited my womb for the past 9 months. While some parts of this process feel like they have taken forever, a much larger part feels like it has gone by SO so quickly.  I didn't quite realize how close we were to the end until today.   So, what made that feeling hit home?  A bottle of milk.  Yep.  I said it.  Milk.

Let me explain...

Since I was a child, I've always been fascinated with upcoming dates and countdowns to events.  I'll divide time into more manageable sections when driving and have had a count down until baby's arrival since January to go along with the count up in weeks that I've had since the very beginning.  My methods and tracking have often changed.  However, there is once consistent method that I have always used to tell when an event is officially "close"...and that is the expiration date on a jug of milk.  As a kid, I remember seeing my birthday on a bottle of milk and being excited that it was so close to the celebration, and I've continued that trend into my adulthood.  When I see an important date on a bottle of milk, I know it's time to start to get excited, and to make sure I'm actually ready.  Today, I found this:


That is my due date on a bottle of chocolate milk.  I guess that means that it is officially close and it's time to make sure that we're completely prepared for this little person to come home.

Tuesday, June 27, 2017

38 Week Dreams

Baby is right around the corner, but dreams of baby are as elusive as ever.  With Orion I regularly dreamed of him, but that has not been the case this pregnancy at all.  Instead, last night's dream brought a visit from my grandpa:

I was standing in the street of a small town talking with grandpa.  He was dressed in his legion uniform and holding a flag, getting ready to march in a parade.  He said one of his buttons on his uniform was loose and he was worried he was going to lose it, so I told him I would grab something and march behind him so I could pick it up if it fell. He then put his arm around me and started to tell me "did you know, these suckers are paying me to march?  I do it for free all the time!" and giggling like only my grandpa could.  He found it hilarious that they were willing to pay him to walk in the parade.  He was still chuckling to himself when he went to find his place in line.  I walked over to a table that was set up on the side walk and picked up a large glass goblet and a clear vase to carry along with me, and took my place in line a few feet behind grandpa.  Music started behind me, and the parade began to march forward. We marched through the streets, uneventfully as I proudly watched him carry the flag down the street.  This parade progressed into an enormous cathedral style building and my grandpa marched right up to the very front with the flags, so the rest of the parade followed.  When we got to the very front, I found myself walking past grandpa and facing the giant stained glass window that was at the front of the building.  Grandpa paused behind me and I could hear the national anthem begin to play behind me.  It was right then that my grandfather let out a sneeze and the button popped right off his uniform.  It bounced off the stained glass, and with one swift motion, I caught the button in the glass vase I had carried along.  I looked to my right and my mother was staring at me, wide eyed.  We both tried to stifle our giggles as the band played, but I had tears rolling down my face from laughing so hard.  After the anthem was finished, the parade dispersed and I found myself walking among the crowd, trying to see if my friends had witnessed my epic button catch, or if it was something I would only share with my mom and grandpa.

Sunday, June 25, 2017

Week 38

Welcome to week 38! We are under 2 weeks officially until baby will make an appearance, one way or another.  This week, the countdown will fall into single digits, which seems insane and I have mixed feelings for sure. So, what's happening in pregnancy world this week?

For baby

Baby probably is about 19 1/2 inches long and weighs about 7 pounds.  Baby has an eye color by this point, but the eye color, as well as the hair color and texture will continue to change from now through the first year of life.   Baby continues to ingest the amniotic fluid, building up that first yucky poop. Surfactant also continues to be produced in the lungs, which is the stuff that causes the air sacs in the lungs to inflate once they start to breathe air for real.

For momma:

My hospital bags are officially packed, the car seats are in the car, and the swing has been brought upstairs into the living room to prep the dog for the invasion.  Physically, I am tired and definitely feeling like I have to pee more often.  My tailbone also hurts a lot, but I think it's because I did too much moving and lifting over the weekend more than anything.  Otherwise, I physically feel ok.  Emotionally, I'm a bit torn.  Part of me is 100% ready for me to get this baby out and into the world.  However, the other part of me is a bit weepy about the whole situation.  I know this is the last time I will be feeling a little human in my womb, and I'm not quite ready to give that up.  I'm ecstatic to see Orion as a big brother and I know he'll be amazing, but I also am not ready to have to share him with another family member yet.  I'm going to have to share my snuggles and love with another human, and I just am not quite ready for all of that business.  I know it will be fine once baby is actually here, but I definitely find myself wanting a little bit more time with Orion, while also being desperately ready for the baby to get here.  It's problematic, but really the only thing I can do about it is to just continue to live in the moment right now, and go with the flow as well as I can.  Either way, it will be over before I know it.


Friday, June 23, 2017

Dr. Appt Week 37

Once again, the latest Dr appointment was uneventful and went smoothly, which is a good thing.  Baby continues to try to hide from the doctor as she tries to find a heart beat, to the point that the doctor thought maybe she had flipped around and was breech.  Fortunately, she wasn't but it was entertaining to feel her wiggling around and responding, but the doctor still having to chase her.

They did my Group B Strep test, and my doctor and I talked a little bit about the epidural for the c-section.  I explained the super itchy feeling that I had after the last one, and she explained that it's actually the pain medication included in the epidural that causes that reaction.  She then said we would discuss our options with the anesthesiologist on the day of surgery.  Essentially I have 2 options, either I have the same medicine and an itchy reaction, or I have a pain med pump put into place, which means no itchiness but potential for more pain.  

Otherwise, the rest of the appointment was not exciting at all.


Now for the vitals:
My weight:  went back down 2 lbs.
Blood Pressure: 112/88 - the nurse said this was a little high, but the doctor was fine with it.
Temperature:  Normal
Baby's heartbeat: 146
Uterus: Measuring at 42 weeks!!!


The next appointment will be in just 1 week, and will be my final appointment before I have this baby.  Woot.

Wednesday, June 21, 2017

Hospital Bag

I've always been a bit of an over planner...I try to be hyper organized, make lists for everything, and definitely am not one to just "go with the flow."  Things like waiting for baby to arrive without being able to control any of it drive me CRAZY!  So imagine trying to pack a bag for an event that you don't know when it is going to happen or what you're going to experience.  Needless to say, the hospital bag has definitely stressed me out more than it probably should, but as of right now it's officially packed.  So what's in my bag?

Clothes for Me
I know at some point I am going to want to be in my own clothes, even if it is just on the way home.  Gotta be comfortable somehow right?  So what have I packed?

  • A dress and super stretchy tights to go under it
  • Comfy T-Shirt
  • 2 super soft pairs of socks
  • Nursing Bra
  • Washable Nursing Pads

Items for Baby
  • Muslin baby blanket
  • Little Dress to come home in
  • Little Green outfit, just in case ;) 
  • Socks & light gloves for long fingernails
  • Burp Rags
  • Diapers
  • Wipes
  • Baby brush & lotion


Electronics
  • Phone Charger
  • Ear Buds
Bathroom Supplies
  • Hair Brush & Hair Ties
  • Shampoo & Conditioner
  • Lotion
  • Makeup & Chapstick
  • Toothbrush & Toothpaste
  • Pads
  • Makeup remover wipes
  • Q-Tips


Other
  • Eye Glass cleaning cloth
  • Grandpa's handkerchief
  • Eyeglass case
  • Wallet with ID & Insurance Cards
Seth will also be grabbing his camera and extra batteries.  Of course, we will also have the car seat in the car, and I will have my breast pump available if needed as well. 

The way I work, this is all packed and ready to go.  However, if I don't unpack and re-pack this bag multiple times in the next 2 weeks, it will be a miracle.  


Sunday, June 18, 2017

Week 37

Welcome to week 37!  We are now under 3 weeks until this little human arrives.  That's insanity!!  So, what's happening in pregnancy world this week?

For baby

Baby is now considered "near term" or "early term", which is the final step between being full term at 39 weeks.  During this time, lungs continue to mature and the brain continues to grow and develop.  Baby probably is about 19 inches long and weighs about 6.5 pounds! Baby will continue to grow about half a pound a week up until arrival.  She still wiggles a lot, but definitely feels like she's down lower than she has been in past weeks.  Baby continues to breath the amniotic fluid and suck their thumb to prep for life on the outside.  Before we know it, they will put those super important skills to the test.

For momma:

I managed to catch a cold this week, which is not my favorite thing.  As if I didn't have to pee often enough as it is, add a cough on top of things and it makes life quite the challenge.  Sleep for the past couple days has been MIA so I'm hoping to get past it soon.  The heartburn is still not too bad, which I will never complain about.  I haven't had it consistently at least, which is great.  Otherwise, I'm trying to be patient and not get too stressed or nervous about little one making an appearance.  I plan on packing my hospital bag sometime this week.  I already have the diaper bag packed, but I'm somehow sure that I'll unpack and repack it more than once in the next two weeks. 

Friday, June 16, 2017

Dr Appt - 36 weeks

I'm officially tired of going to the doctor.  Now, don't get me wrong...my doctor is very kind and awesome...I just don't want to go to any more appointments!  We just hit the point where I will be going weekly, which means that the end is in sight, and for that part of things I am totally ready.

My latest appointment went smoothly and uneventfully.  I did get to take Orion with me, and that was fun to share.  The nurse weighed me and took my vitals, all while explaining to Orion what she was doing.  She even took the time to weigh him as well.  Then we went back into the doctor's office to wait and he asked questions about how the baby was doing.  It was very sweet.  Ultimately though, he was here to listen to the baby's heart beat.  This was his face when he heard it for the first time:


The baby kept moving away from the sensor, making the doctor chase the heart beat and Orion found that super entertaining.

My doctor also officially scheduled my c-section with the hospital of my choice since we are so close to the end now.  She still says if I go into labor naturally in the next couple weeks, we will play it by ear, but if not we have an appointment scheduled at least.

After the appointment, my doctor also gave me a prescription for a breast pump, so Orion and I went to Milk Works to pick up my electronic, hospital grade double breast pump.  I obviously haven't tried it out yet, but I'm happy to have something higher quality than what I had with Orion, and for it to be covered by my insurance.  Here is hoping it makes breast feeding easier this time than it was for the boy.

Now for the vitals:
My weight:  went up 2 lbs.  I officially am back to pre-pregnancy weight.
Blood Pressure: 131/78
Temperature:  Normal
Baby's heartbeat: 145
Uterus: Measuring at 38 weeks


Also, Orion is now 50" tall and weighs 62.8 lbs!  Where did my little boy go??  The next appointment will be in just 1 week, so whee?  I expect it to be very uneventful.

Sunday, June 11, 2017

Week 36

Welcome to week 36!  The countdown has started and we are officially less than 30 days from meeting this little person.  It seems impossible, but there we are!  So, what's happening in pregnancy world this week?

For baby

Baby is now 18 to 19 inches long and weighs about 6 pounds! Baby should be shedding most of the lanugo, which is the fuzzy hair that covers their body, as well as the vernix, which is the waxy stuff that protects the baby's skin in the womb.   The baby's skull bones are not completely fused together, and won't be until well after birth.  This is to make it possible to move through the birth canal without getting stuck.  Circulation and immune systems should be complete and working on their own to keep the baby safe from infections.  The digestive system is still working to get completed though, and won't be done until after birth because the baby will continue to rely on the umbilical cord for nutrition until birth.  Baby should also already be head down, and has been at all of our appointments so far.  Here's hoping it stays that way.  I go back to the Dr. on Friday, June 16th and will give you an update on how things look at that point.

For momma:

Physically, I feel ok.  My tailbone still hurts but in general I feel pretty good.  Baby is pushed up against all my organs, so there are definitely moments where I have to pee quickly, or where I'm just not hungry because my stomach already feels full, but in general none of those are major issues.  I still have heartburn semi-regularly, but it doesn't seem as bad as it has been in weeks past.  I'm also still dealing with some random swelling in my feet, most often on days where my entire work day is spent sitting in meetings.   When I do have time to walk around, I'm trying incredibly hard not to waddle!  

Monday, June 5, 2017

Pregnancy Brain Returns

Adventures in Pregnancy Brain returns.  Whee!??!  I figure I should blog this while I still remember it happening...


I had sincerely hoped that I would miss out on Pregnancy Brain this time since I dealt with it so badly with Orion, but as of Saturday I can no longer pretend that I'm not currently brain fried completely.  So, what happened?  Let me explain:

Saturday, I went to the grocery store to pick up a few things for the weekend.  I took Seth's car to the store, parked, and successfully bought all my groceries with no problems whatsoever.  Yay, me!  I go back to the car, open the trunk, and put all the groceries in.  Then, like a good patron, I walk the cart to the cart holder and put it away and return to my car.   I try to unlock the door, and the doors don't seem to respond to the buttons I'm pushing.  I try again, and no go..the doors will not unlock!  I lock the car again, and hear the honk, so I know that it's working.  I try to unlock them again, but nope, still won't unlock.  I try to think, and realize that I had just opened the trunk with the same key fob, so I try to open it again, but nope...the trunk won't open either.  What the hell!  Now I'm getting mad.  This isn't even my car and the damn thing won't work, and I'm stuck in the Hy-vee parking lot with groceries in the trunk.  Grr!

So, since the car is push to start, it has the hidden key in the keyfob where you can manually unlock the car...so I take out the manual key and...wouldn't you know it, I can't open the damn door with the manual key either!  What the heck!??! I lock the door again and hear the "honk" that it locks.  At this point, I take out my cell phone and try to call Seth to ask him if he has had problems with this damn fob unlocking his car.  As I'm calling him, I click the damn lock button like 3 times in a row..."Honk!  Honk! Honk!"

It is at that point that I realize that the honk is not coming from in front of me...but instead seems to be coming from behind me...

I hang up the phone quickly before Seth can answer.  I turn around and, wouldn't you know it, 2 cars away from me is Seth's car, trunk wide open, honking proudly that the doors are locked.  I rush over to the car, slam the lid closed, then unlock the doors and get in before looking around to see just how many people are watching me try to break in to the wrong car.

Of course, at that point Seth was calling me back and I couldn't get away with just a "nevermind" answer...because when you're pregnant, your man gets WAY more concerned when he misses a call from you, so I told him the story and he enjoyed it so much that I thought I'd share it with all of you.


What can I say except, you're welcome?


Sunday, June 4, 2017

Week 35


Welcome to week 35!  The weather is hot, the sunshine is bright, and we're now only 35 days until this little one is supposed to be arriving.  I can't believe we're so close already and 35 days seems both so close and so far away at the same time.  It's a little bit crazy!  So, what's happening in pregnancy world this week?

For baby

Baby should now be somewhere between 18 and 20 inches long depending on how big they are going to be.  Baby should also weigh over 5 pounds now! They will continue to put on about 1/2 a pound each week until arrival.  Fingernails and toenails are in place, and the kidneys and liver are fully developed to process waste from their little bodies.

For momma:

For me, I feel alright.  Very full, but in general not terrible.  My tail bone hurts fairly regularly, which is no fun, but most other aches and pains are temporary.  There is a lot of movement now, which is entertaining and very distracting at the same time, but it's one of my favorite things in pregnancy.  Even Orion is now regularly feeling the baby dancing around and talks to her often.  He even gives me 2 hugs in the morning, one for each of us, which I think is sweet.  I know he is going to be an incredible big brother.  

Friday, June 2, 2017

I'm a bad blogger

So, I'm a couple weeks behind in baby updates, and haven't even posted about my latest doctor's appointment.  Let me reassure you that everything is going just fine!  I'm just plain lazy...or exhausted...or busy.  It's definitely been some combination of those things.  I want to continue writing and sharing this journey, so I'm going to ignore those missing posts that guilt me into not posting at all, and instead focus on moving forward.  I'm going to try to go back to posting the regular updates as I can going forward, so look forward to the next baby update on Sunday.  Thanks for reading through our journey as parents, and caring about our family.

Tuesday, May 16, 2017

Sweet moments with our son

Last night, as we were tucking Orion into bed, he sat me down and started talking about being a big brother.  He's decided that if the baby gets scared or has a bad dream that they can come sleep in his bed with him so he can take care of them and show them that there is nothing to be afraid of.  His heart is so big and he is so loving and sweet that I can't wait to see how he is as a big brother.

Each morning, not only does he hug me, but he also makes sure to hug my belly separately to say good morning to the baby.  He is so sweet to me and I really look forward to seeing him in action as a big brother.  I truly think he will be amazing, and I hope that he loves this baby just as much when he finally gets to meet them.

Monday, May 15, 2017

Dreams #8

Yay for more random dreams!

The first dream that I'll share today was a dream that I was a ballerina.  Let me begin by saying that I have never in my life wanted to be a ballerina, so I have no idea where this dream came from, but I was highly entertained by it nonetheless.  My dream was that I had a ballet recital.  It starts with me on stage surrounded by random small children and my dance instructor.  I was 8 months pregnant and wearing a black leotard and a little black tutu.  I pranced across the stage as my instructor repeated "padichu" over and over like it was the name of the dance move.  Waking me knows that "padichu" is the French word for "puff pastry" but sleeping me definitely thought it was a fancy ballet dance move.  I finished my recital, and my mother and grandmother were there watching.  They came up to the stage and my mother was crying because she was so proud of me.  My grandmother told me "now don't forget that grandad left those veggies down in the cellar".  I still have no idea what that means, but it definitely seems like some randomness that my grandma would say.  I woke up giggling at the thought of me as a pregnant ballerina.


Last night's dream was short, but sweet.  I was holding a tiny infant baby with dark hair and lactating everywhere!  I was trying to get the baby to eat, but it seemed like more milk was pouring out of me and onto my clothes than there was going into the baby I was trying to feed.  It was short, but super weird.

Sunday, May 14, 2017

Week 32

Welcome to week 32!  Spring is here, the weather is warm, and we are now less than 60 days until we meet this little person.  So, what's happening in pregnancy world this week?

For baby

Baby is now about 18 inches long and weighs about 4 pounds! Baby will continue to put on about 1/2 a pound each week.  If baby is going to be born with hair, the fuzzy hair will now be in place.  Also, baby should now have all of their fingernails and toenails.

For momma:

So far this week seems a little bit better than last week.  Mother's day was lovely and I'm sunburned and tired in the best possible way.  I'm still tired but I feel better about it today, so that's a good thing. This baby is sitting up way higher than Orion did, so I'm a bit uncomfortable, but nothing unbearable.  This week looks pretty positive, and I'm happy. 

Sunday, April 30, 2017

Week 30

Welcome to week 30!  It's cool and rainy here, but we're spending the day together as a family.  It's hard to believe that we're less than 10 weeks from meeting our little one already.  This last trimester is going so quickly already!  I'm sure the end will be here before I know it.  So, what's happening in pregnancy world this week?

For baby

Baby is now about 17 inches long and weighs about 3 1/2 pounds!  Orion was 20 inches long and 8 pounds 9 ounces, so that doesn't seem that far off!  Apparently from this point forward baby is supposed to be putting on about 1/2 a pound each week.  Baby is also starting to lose the lanugo, or the baby fur that covers them in the womb.  Hopefully that means the baby is less werewolf and more human by the time they are born.   The eyes are also still developing, but not very good but can tell the difference between light and dark, etc.  They will continue to improve over the next month until they reach they point they are at for birth.  Also, the bone marrow is now supposed to take over making baby's red blood cells, which will be extremely beneficial for the future.

For momma:

Overall, things are going alright.  I haven't had anything too major happening, other than the doctor's appointment that has made me uncomfortable.  My arm still hurts from the Whooping Cough shot on Thursday, and my hand is still incredibly sore, but at least now I can make a fist without whimpering.  I feel ok for the most part, with some soreness in my hips and tailbone, but again nothing major.  The worst part of things is simply feeling tired all the time.  I'm absolutely exhausted and not able to sleep through the night at all.  I wake up constantly from being uncomfortable or having to pee and it's definitely draining.  I'm doing the best I can to not let it get to me, but that's definitely easier some days than others.  

Saturday, April 29, 2017

V-Bac vs C-Section - Doctor Discussion

I mentioned in my last post  that I had a discussion with my doctor at our 29 week appointment about the potential of VBAC vs C-Section.  I chose my doctor specifically because she's someone who genuinely supports VBAC efforts, but I wanted her honest opinions on how things looked and was pleasantly surprised to get that.   We went through everything, and ultimately her answer was that statistically I only have about a 40% chance of success for a VBAC at this point.  There are a few things that work against me here:

  1. With Orion, I never progressed, so there is no guarantee that my pelvis (or the rest of my body) can manage childbirth naturally.  That doesn't mean that it can't but it's something that has to be taken into consideration. 
  2.  I am overweight (shocking, I know) which reduces the success rate of VBAC statistically. 
  3. My age.  While I'm not at an age yet that puts me at high risk, I am 32 years old, and the older you get the harder childbirth tends to be on your body. 
Again, none of these things necessarily mean that I COULDN'T deliver the baby naturally.  It just means that statistically I am more likely to run into issues.  All those things being said, if I chose to still try to do a VBAC my doctor would fully support my decision.  Ultimately, it is my decision which route I want to take, and I've made a decision.  

We are going to be scheduling a C-Section during my 39th week of pregnancy, unless I naturally go into labor before then.  Again, there are multiple things that come into play with that decision, and I don't feel like I have to justify my decision with anyone.  However, there are a few things to understand: 
  1. I will be having my tubes tied.  This process can be done as part of the C-Section, but would require another hospital visit and surgery at 6 weeks post-partum if I had a vaginal birth.  This would mean more time off work and 2 intense medical events in a very short period of time. 
  2. If I ended up using an epidural during vaginal birth, this would also mean the potential for 2 separate sets of anesthesia, which is not always my friend. 
  3. Again, I only have a 40% statistical chance of having the baby naturally. 
  4. Finally, I know that if I tried and failed I would feel MUCH worse about things than just choosing to go C-Section from the beginning.  This may not seem like it matters, but I remember with Orion feeling like a total failure and like I missed out on child birth, and I don't want to put myself through that again. 
If I go into labor naturally before 39 weeks, we will see what happens there, but for now this is the plan.  

Thursday, April 27, 2017

Doctor's Appointment - 29 Weeks

Today I had my 29 week doctor's appointment.  This appointment was longer than most have been, but should be the last intense-ish appointment *fingers crossed*.    This appointment included the 1 hour test for gestational diabetes, and the discussion of VBac vs C-Section with my doctor.

First, the gestational diabetes test.  At my last appointment, they sent me home with the glucose drink for me to drink one hour before my appointment.  I spent the last month dreading that since everyone talks about how horrible it was.  It was a clear liquid that was optimistically labeled "Fruit Punch."  I knew I had to drink the entire bottle (which was actually pretty small) within 5 minutes so when the time came, I held my breath and decided to just get it over with and chug it expecting the worst. In reality, it tasted like a melted popsicle and really wasn't all that bad.  When I got to the doctor's office, I checked in with the desk and they took note of my drink time, and then sent me back to the nurse for my vitals.  She measured all the things, then took me back to the room to meet with the doctor, promising she'd be back to draw my blood at the 1 hour mark.

In preparation for the blood draw, I made sure to drink more than 8 glasses of water in the 6 hours before the appointment because last time I was told I was dehydrated and that's why the blood draw was difficult.  Unfortunately, that doesn't seem to be the case.  The nurse tried to take blood from my right arm, but couldn't get it to flow, so she then tried my left arm.  Again, no go.  The nurse was kind and very good, but my body was not cooperating.  Ultimately, she ended up finding a vein in the back of my right hand and drawing the blood from there.  That was the most painful blood draw I've ever had.  And after barely getting 1 vial I started to clot so they gave up, but my hand is still swollen and bruised  and hurts SO bad.  I can't make a fist and even just typing hurts.  It was not my favorite experience.  Then, to just get it over with, they gave me the TDaP shot as well in my right arm for whooping cough so I ended the day with 4 bandages and lots of sore spots.  Not my favorite experience.  They said that they will contact me if I fail the gestational diabetes test, but I won't hear from them otherwise, so if I get any news, I'll make sure to post that here.

This post has gotten quite long already, so I'm going to make the VBac discussion with my doctor in a separate post.

Now for the vitals:
My weight:  Actually stayed the same in the last month.
Blood Pressure: 122/68
Temperature:  Normal
Baby's heartbeat: 145
Uterus: Measuring at 31 weeks

From here on, appointments will switch to 2 weeks instead of monthly, which definitely shows that we're getting closer!

Tuesday, April 25, 2017

Week 29

Week 29.  So, I totally missed week 28, but here we are, playing catch up!  Sorry.  We are officially in the third and final trimester.  Woohoo.  We've had lots of rain and things are starting to grow and turn green, which is great.  So, what's happening in pregnancy world this week?

For baby

Baby is now about 16 inches long and weighs about three pounds!  That seems so big, but in the next 11 weeks baby will at least double, if not triple in size.  That seems crazy.  More and more fat is being deposited under baby's skin which is where most of the additional weight will come from. The baby still moves a lot, but is super stubborn and won't kick consistently for either of the boys.  I can tell Orion is frustrated, and that makes me sad.  I hope that as the baby continues to grow it will get easier for him to feel.

For momma:

Well, things are still progressing.  Unfortunately, I've officially had my first calf cramp.  I fully expected them, but I still hate them SO much.  They wake me from a dead sleep and take so long to go away again.  *sigh*  I've also started to have a weird issue where I feel light headed if I get too hot, which has only happened twice, but it's not fun at all.  Otherwise, things are just moving along.  I have my next doctor's appointment on Thursday, which includes my gestational diabetes test, so we'll see how things go there. 

Tuesday, April 11, 2017

Dreams #7

It's been a while since I've talked about my dreams, but there are a couple new ones to add to the list.

A couple nights ago I had a dream that Seth and I went to the hospital to have the baby.  Instead of an epidural they put me to sleep completely so I missed the baby being born.  However, when I woke up I was in no pain and was able to get up and walk around with no issues.  They brought the baby in for me to try to breastfeed and the tiny baby had 7 teeth!! After trying (and failing) to breastfeed, the baby sat up on their own, grabbed a bottle behind me, and laid back down with it, holding it on their own.  It was so random...


Last night I had a much shorter dream that I was listening to my own stomach with a stethoscope to hear the baby's heart beat, but instead I could actually hear the baby cooing and crying inside my womb.  It was very strange!

Sunday, April 9, 2017

Week 27

Week 27.  Welcome to the final week of the second trimester.  It's hard to believe that we're here already, but we've made it!! The weather is warming and it feels like spring is finally here.  So, what's happening this week?

For baby

Baby is now about 15 inches long and weighs 2 pounds.  Baby will keep growing and growing over the next couple months to prep for life outside my body.  Baby is apparently supposed to be sleeping and waking up at regular intervals now, and is possibly even sucking on fingers.  Aww.

For momma:

Other than the usual aches and pains, nothing terribly exciting is happening.  I'm trying to avoid calf cramps like the plague!!  I haven't had one yet this pregnancy, but remember just how badly they hurt so I'm trying to steer clear of them.  

Sunday, April 2, 2017

Week 26

Week 26.  Last week, I scheduled my very first 3rd trimester doctor's appointment for next month.  It's hard to believe that we're that close already.  This week, we're officially in spring as well, so I'm hoping the weather will continue to stay nicer.  So, what's happening this week?

For baby
Baby is now about 14 inches long, and weighs nearly 2 pounds! This week baby's eyes finally open and they start to learn to focus and take in the world around them.  The iris still isn't pigmented, but that will come with time, although eye color can continue to change for at least the first 6 months of life.


For momma:

Overall, nothing much has changed.  I'm getting bigger and baby is wiggly but otherwise things are going well and uneventfully. 

Sunday, March 26, 2017

Week 25

Week 25.  Last week, I scheduled my very first 3rd trimester doctor's appointment for next month.  It's hard to believe that we're that close already.  This week, we're officially in spring as well, so I'm hoping the weather will continue to stay nicer.  So, what's happening this week?

For baby
Baby is now about 13.5 inches long, which is about the height of a prairie dog, and weighs about 1 1/2 pounds.  Lungs are continuing to develop, and fat is building up under the skin.  The hair (if baby has any) will also start to gain color, although this color can continue to change after birth.  Baby is also very wiggly at this point, and movement is starting to be visible from the outside.  It's pretty entertaining.  Now if only the little one will start to kick for big brother, Orion will be a much happier kiddo.

For momma:

As is probably expected I have not dyed or cut my hair during this pregnancy, so for the first time in a couple years, I have probably the longest hair in our household.  It's strange and I'm ready for a change, but for now I'm trying to be patient. I am also waking up at least once every night to pee, so I'm starting to get very tired at times from not getting enough sleep. My hips and back are typically ok, but Saturday I spent too long sitting on the floor and now my body is paying the price for that. My next Dr appointment, I will also be doing the Glucose screening for Gestational Diabetes so I'm hoping that it turns out fine as well. 

Thursday, March 23, 2017

Dr Appt - Week 24

Today I had my 24 week doctor appointment.  This appointment was relatively short because I was visiting a nurse practitioner since my doctor had to go deliver a baby unexpectedly.  We were supposed to visit about my probability of VBAC success, but that obviously didn't happen.

The stats for this week's appointment:

My weight:  I've gained 1 pound in the last month, but I'm still well below my starting weight.
Blood pressure:  110/60
Temperature:  Normal
Baby's Heartbeat:  144
Uterus:  Measuring at about 25 weeks

My next appointment will be where I do the Gestational Diabetes test...wheee.  Here's hoping the next few weeks go by uneventfully as well.

Sunday, March 19, 2017

Week 24

Week 24.  Man how time flies.  I haven't accomplished much in the last week, but I'm ok with that.  We spent the weekend in Kansas City to celebrate Orion's birthday and now I'm pretty exhausted, but happy.  Let's see what this week brings us.

For baby
Baby is now about 12 inches long and weighs about  1 1/3 pounds.  Lungs are developing even more to prepare for life on the outside, and the cells to hep air sacs inflate are also forming.  The skin is still super thing and translucent, but that will change as more weight is gained and fat begins to accumulate.  Otherwise, baby will just keep growing.

For momma:

As I said before, we spent the weekend in KC for Orion's 8th birthday and had a great time.  We went to visit the Pompeii exhibit at Union Station, hit up the KC Zoo, and even got to go to the Sporting KC soccer game, where Orion got to walk onto the field with the team.  It was an incredible weekend, but I am definitely tired and paying for it now.  In general, I feel alright, but I miss my pregnancy pillow FOR SURE!  It will be nice to sleep in my own bed again. 

Sunday, March 12, 2017

Week 23

We have reached week 23. Time is going very quickly, while somehow seeming to stand still.  I'm not sure how that's possible, but it's the best way I can explain it. There is still so much that I want to get done before the baby comes so it feels like time is flying, but I'm also ready to meet this kiddo, so it seems to stand still.  Whee?  So let's see what this week brings us.

For baby
Baby is now about 11.5 inches long, which is about the height of a Barbie doll and weighs just over a pound. Blood vessels are starting to form in the lungs to prepare for life outside the womb.  The ears are also growing more sensitive, so she can hear even more, both inside and outside of the womb.

For momma:

My mother and my grandmother were here this weekend, and it was great to get to spend some time with them.  I love them both and spending time hearing them talk about my family history and learning about my grandmother's childhood was fascinating and entertaining.  I've also finally taken the time to make a couple of gift registries since I've had people ask.  I am not having a baby shower so I don't know that these were really necessary, but ya know.  :) They exist out there at least.

Target Registry

Amazon Registry

Sunday, March 5, 2017

Week 22

So, this is definitely posted late, but we've now reached week 22. July still feels like a long time away, but I'm trying to get as much stuff ready as I can.  There are still things that I know need to be done, but we're making progress, so that's something.

For baby
Baby is now 11 inches long and nearly 1 pound in weight!  Movements are getting easier to detect and are happening more steadily.  Lips, eyelids, and eyebrows are now easily distinguishable.  The eyes are formed, but the irises still have no color.   The pancreas is also in the process of developing and starting to create their own hormones.

For momma:

I got a new pregnancy pillow and this thing has been amazing!  I have even gone so far as to take ALL of the other pillows off my side of the bed, which is amazing since I previously had 4 of them.  For those curious, I bought this pillow.  It is super comfortable and keeps me from sleeping on my back or stomach, which is such an improvement.  

Saturday, March 4, 2017

Orion is 8!!

My baby boy is 8 years old!  How is that even possible?  It doesn't seem like it's been that long since I was posting pregnancy information with him, but he's grown into such an incredible little man.  He loves soccer, Pokemon, Star Wars.  He's got an enormous heart and is super intelligent.  I'm incredibly proud of him.  I also know that he will be an amazing big brother and I look forward to seeing him take on that role. Happy birthday, bubby.  I love you and am so incredibly proud of who you are.





Thursday, March 2, 2017

Official Pregnancy Annoucement

Last week we finally made an official pregnancy announcement on social media.  We had taken photos in our home together during the week before and had a lot of fun laughing and posing together.  I think they turned out great and I'm happy to get to share a few of the photos here as well.










Tuesday, February 28, 2017

VBAC vs C-Section

From the beginning of this pregnancy, the birth of our future child has of course been on my mind.  With Orion, I ended up having a c-section, so I knew from the beginning that I had two options for this child...try a VBAC or repeat a c-section.  I intentionally found a doctor that is both willing and able to help with VBAC births to keep my options open.  However, despite that fact, I still haven't made up my mind about which route is the right one for me.  It's a terrifying, difficult decision that I don't feel has enough resources or actual discussion around it.  Fortunately for me, my doctor is very open to letting me NOT make a decision until the end of the 3rd trimester, so I have some time...but I still feel the pressure of not knowing what to do and it's driving me a bit crazy.


You see tables like the one below and can weigh the risks side by side, but no one gets into the emotional differences.


After I gave birth to Orion, part of me felt like I had missed out on the actual child birth part.  I had never felt any real contractions, my water never broke, and I never even fully dilated.  I ended the process with a beautiful, healthy baby and in reality that is all that matters, but I still feel like I had missed the experience of child birth.  Part of me wants that.   However, part of me is also TERRIFIED of it.  Not only have I never been through it, what if things don't go well and I end up having to have a c-section anyway?  *sigh*  

On the other side of things, with a c-section I know the procedure, I know how recovery goes, and I'm completely familiar with what to expect.  Yes, there is potential for it to be different this time, but odds are it will at least be similar.   I also know that my body can handle a c-section with no issues, while natural birth is still questionable.  And in reality, is it really such a bad thing to not ever have a contraction or deal with my water breaking?  Really, my decision needs to come down to what is best both for me and my baby...and shouldn't be based on this fear of missing out on the things that most other women experience.  My experience is my own and that should be good enough, right?  

Also weighing into this decision is the fact that I plan on having my tubes tied after this baby is born, which means that I will end up having to have surgery either way....can I just say again *sigh*.   I'm sure this discussion will continue, but I wanted to at least start to put my thoughts into words. 

Sunday, February 26, 2017

Week 21

Welcome to week 21.  The halfway mark has come and gone, and we are still rolling quickly toward baby being born.  July seems like a long time away, but I'm sure it will be here before I know it.  The weather has returned to winter, even giving us a snow day on Friday, but I'm still ready for spring to return and stay around for a while.

For baby
Baby is now the 10.5 inches from head to foot and about 13 ounces according to our latest ultrasound.  Baby currently sleeps about 14 hours a day, but I can definitely tell when it's time to wake up and play around. Baby is still continuing to grow bigger and stronger to get ready for life outside the womb.  Wheee.


For momma:

Luckily the pain in my hips and back isn't so bad right now since I've found a more comfortable sleeping position.  I did have a few days though were I just felt crummy...nothing major but I think my body was fighting off a cold.  I blame the constantly changing weather we're dealing with right now.  My belly is definitely round and getting rounder, but otherwise things are pretty uneventful at this point. 

Thursday, February 23, 2017

Dr Appt - 20 Weeks

We had our 20 week ultrasound appointment today.  Everything went smoothly and we enjoyed getting to see our little one.  We saw everything, head to toe, including the brain and 4-chambered heart, hands and feet, and even a little bit of personality.  Baby didn't like having the brain scanned, and tried to hide behind the depth of my belly button.  We saw waving hands and kicking feet and lots of sass from the little one.  Everything is scanning at the perfect gestational size as well. Overall, everything looks great with the placenta in the right place and a perfect three vessel umbilical cord. Even my Cervix looks pretty good.  Plus the tech was great.  She answered my questions as we went along and kept us updated on what she was looking at.  There were times where she would even talk to the baby as she was trying to get baby to move or wiggle about.  When we told her about the first ultrasound with Orion, she even went so far as to bring a second tech in to verify the gender to help ease our distrust of the result.  :)   And no, I'm not quite ready to announce what that answer was here quite yet.  :)


Everything else from the Doctor's appointment was pretty uneventful, which is definitely a good thing.  So we've passed the halfway mark and things are a-ok.


Other Stats:

Baby Heartbeat:  150 bpm
My Blood Pressure: 119/72
Body Temperature: Normal
My Weight: Down


Tuesday, February 21, 2017

Dream #6

Seth and I went to the hospital for my 20 week ultrasound and ended up posted getting swept into a group of pregnant people doing a hospital tour. They showed Seth a kitchen that I wasn't allowed into but had a little window. I watched Seth cook stir fry in this hit wok with my face in the tiny open window but somehow ended up getting way to hot so as we walked over to my appointment room I passed out. As I was coming to I heard the Dr lecturing Seth about letting the patient lay down for procedures instead of making them stay standing. As I opened my eyes I could see the baby in a hospital crib beside me but I was SUPER high on anesthetics. They brought in some nerdy black guy with a big afro and light blue Polo Shirt to test my reflexes and get me ready to go home. I kept laughing hysterically at stupid things. He tried to give me medicine out of a big scoop spoon but put it by my nose instead of my mouth. I pushed it away getting it all over his shirt and telling him he was trying to drown me. I then told Seth that I'd ruined the guys shirt so we should probably buy him a new one. He continued testing me and I got emotional and told him he was a good man all tearfully... He told me I was good to go home and left.

Sunday, February 19, 2017

Week 20

Welcome to week 20.  We have officially hit the midway mark on this pregnancy!  Let's hope that the next half goes as quickly and as smoothly as this first half has.  The weather is still beautiful, with 60 degree temperatures in February, so I'm enjoying the pretend spring we have going right now.  Next week we're supposed to be back to the 40s, so I'll enjoy it while it lasts.  On Thursday we have the "big" ultrasound, so I'll definitely have an update to talk all about that process.

For baby
Baby is now the 6.5 inches from head to tail (hehe) and about 10 ounces, which apparently is the size of a banana.  Next week we start measuring from head to toe, which will make WAY more sense to me. Baby now also has working taste buds and is drinking amniotic fluid.  At this point though, baby is essentially working on growing bigger and stronger to get ready for life outside the womb.


For momma:

For me, the top of the uterus should be about even with my belly button.  We're currently trying to figure out names for both a boy and girl, since we don't have a ton of faith in gender shown by the ultrasound later in the week.  We like to be prepared either way.  :)  This weekend we spent some time taking pictures for our eventual pregnancy announcement.  We had a lot of fun as a family doing it, which was such a great experience.  We also took some random pics of my bump, which is most definitely standing out all on its own right now.  I feel like I'm already bigger than I was with Orion, so that's scary.  Maybe I'm just misremembering but I definitely feel pretty big.  I'm also starting to have back and hip pain, which is no fun.  I'm relying on warm baths and heat pads to keep that managed, but I'm sure the boys are already tired of my whining.  Hopefully it's just temporary and will quit being so annoying soon. We will see. 

Friday, February 17, 2017

Dream #5

Today we have a special visiting dreamer....Seth!  That's right...our very own Geeky Dad has had his own share of bizarre dreams during this pregnancy, and last night's featured me, so I thought I would share it with you because....well...why not??

He was at work at a building out in the middle of the country.  He walked outside and when he stepped back inside he saw that one of his co-workers had killed everyone in the building.  Seth asked "Dude, what the heck?"  The guy looked at him a little surprised and told Seth "You have to help me hide these bodies".  Seth said "Wait, are you going to kill me?" and the co-worker replied "that depends on if you help to hide these or not"...so of course Seth obliged and helped carry all of the bodies into a building outside of the office.  However, somehow the co-worker still ended up getting caught and sent to prison, while Seth was arrested but allowed to go free.  He then called me to pick him up from prison, which I did...but when we got home he saw that I had also killed a bunch of people.  He again was like "What the heck, you're pregnant.  This was a bad idea" but helped me hide the bodies nonetheless.


Romantic, right?  Murder, conspiracy, and team work.  That's love right there.

Thursday, February 16, 2017

Dreams #4

Last night I had 3 very random dreams!

Dream 1 - Military Base and Trump

Anyone who knows me knows that I am definitely not a Trump supporter. Last night I had a dream that I was on some random military base and Trump happened to be there.  As we were walking outside, we got notice that a bomber was on the way to strike the base we were on so everyone started running to evacuate.  Trump, of course, wanted to put on a show for the press, so he picked up the American flag and started running toward the door.  I grabbed the pole with him to hide his face from the cameras and block his "heroic" attempt.  Once we were inside he threw the flag aside and sprinted out the back door to a waiting helicopter.  Me and the military personnel all started grabbing things to take to the escape planes, including stair sets and emergency kits.  We set the stairs by the cargo hold and the military all started boarding the plane into what looked like comfy first class accommodations.  I looked behind me and there were still civilians all over, so I left the plane and began helping them into the cargo hold, climbing up the stairs and filling the corners of the plane as quickly as possible.  Some people were even climbing up into the ceiling to make more room.  Once everyone was loaded, the plane took off and as I looked out the empty cargo hatch I watched the base explode.  Then I woke up.



Dream 2 -- Cousin drama and Soccer

During my pregnancy with Orion, I had a dream about fighting with one of my cousins over playing the flute.  It's hilarious to read about now, especially since I have never played the flute.  Last night, I dreamt that I was fighting with another cousin and she decided to steal my soccer uniform and hide in random places around her bedroom.  She left the room and I began digging through her dresser and searching her room to find the uniform piece by piece.  Her mother came in and started yelling at me for going through my cousin's things without permission and I tried to explain myself, but she would hear nothing of it.  I woke up not finding my uniform....Keep in mind, I've also never played soccer (except 1 season when I was 5 years old and I was AWFUL!  Just ask my mom).


Dream 3 -- Pregnant Again?

The third and final dream of the night was just pretty stupid honestly.  For some unknown reason, me and a bunch of friends decided to take pregnancy tests together. All of them came back negative except mine, which was positive.  I was shocked because I already knew I was pregnant, but in my dream assumed that this pregnancy test meant that there was a 2nd baby in there with a different due date than the first.  I spent a lot of time in the dream talking to myself trying to figure out how I would give birth to the first baby while keeping the second one inside until it was actually due.  I worried and worried until I called my mom, who told me that it really isn't possible to get pregnant with a 2nd baby while you're 19 weeks pregnant....it wasn't until then that I realized that the pregnancy test was positive because of the 1st baby.  Like I said, completely dumb!!



My brain is such a strange place sometimes.  If you have any explanation for these, I'd love to hear them. :)

Sunday, February 12, 2017

Week 19

Welcome to week 19.  It's hard to believe that we're already almost half way done with this pregnancy, but at the same time it feels like it has lasted forever!  :)  The weather is beautiful, so we all have spring fever pretty badly...even though it's only February.  I'm sure we'll get hit hard with snow sometime here soon, but for now, we will enjoy the sunshine.  Som what is going on with the pregnancy this week?

For baby
Baby is now the size of a gameboy, which is about 6 inches crown to rump and weighs about 8.5 oz.   This is definitely my favorite size comparison so far.  The squishy little one now has hair follicles on top of their head and could be growing hairs already. Baby is also developing a waxy covering to protect them from getting all pruney and to help get down the birth canal.  Also, the brain is starting to connect nerves to muscles which means the movements can be more intentional and less reflexive, which is very cool.

For momma:

For me, I'm dealing with acne, which makes me feel like a 13 year old again and that is no fun. I also find that if I sit on a hard chair for too long it hurts my back and my legs start to fall asleep, so that also sucks.  Otherwise, I feel alright.  Right now, most of my thought time is put into our debate of VBAC vs C-Section #2.  It's such a hard choice to make, and I can see pros and cons to both sides, which will probably end up being a post on its very own.  Dreams are also back to being super vivid and random, so that makes things very interesting. 

Thursday, February 9, 2017

4th Doctor Appointment

I went back to the doctor for my monthly appointment.  As normal, I again peed in a cup for whatever reason.  My weight has dropped further, so I'm now down 14 pounds since I got pregnant.  Blood pressure was 120/62 which is good, but my body temperature is finally back to normal.  Baby's heart beat was 145 bpm, which sounds excellent.  The nurses also took my blood to test for neural tube defects to make sure there isn't anything like spina bifida.  Unfortunately, the nurses were NOT awesome, and ended up with 2 different nurses and poking both arms and digging around before being able to get any blood.  I'm now all bruised and crabby.  My next appointment is at 20 weeks where they will do the big anatomy scan ultrasound.  It should be pretty exciting.




Sunday, February 5, 2017

Week 18

Week 18...I'll begin by saying that everything is perfectly fine with the pregnancy.  However, the last week has been one of the hardest of my life.  On Sunday, January 29th my grandfather passed away.  He was such an incredible man and one of my favorite humans.  He filled so many roles in my life, acting as more of a father than a grandfather, constantly supporting me and giving a sense of stability that I rarely found elsewhere...so to say his loss hit hard puts it very mildly.  I'm still heartbroken but trying to get back to normal life. I've written about my experience with his death on my personal blog, which you can find here: http://startswithagirl.blogspot.com/2017/02/grandpas-final-days.html
I don't want this to be a super sad blog, so that's all I'll say here.

So now, week 18.  What's happening??

For baby
Baby is now the size of a sweet potato and growing steadily, which is about 5.5 inches and 7 ounces.  The nervous system is developing and movement is increasing along with that, allowing more kicks and movement.  Facial features are developing as well, so the baby should be starting to actually be cute.

For momma:

As I said before, I'm sad, very sad, but I'm trying to keep positive as possible.  I physically feel fine and am less tired.  I'm sleeping a little better, but still wake up at least once at night to go to the bathroom.  I also am feeling more and more little kicks and movements which I love.  I look forward to those continuing to get more frequent and noticeable, and I really look forward to being able to share those kicks with Seth and Orion.  Hopefully that will happen sooner than later. 

Sunday, January 29, 2017

Week 17

So, I've fallen behind a bit on posting here because..well...life. I'll explain in a bit.  However, let's play catch up and get things up to date!  Week 17!  What is going on with the pregnancy this week?

For baby
Baby is now the size of a turnip or a pear.  The baby is now practicing sucking and swallowing to prepare for life after birth.  Also, on their tiny fingers, fingerprints are starting to form. Baby continues to grow and gain weight.  All exciting things.

For momma:

And me? Overall feeling alright.  Nothing exciting.  My weight is still dropping and I feel pretty decent.  Nothing terribly exciting at all. 

Sunday, January 22, 2017

Week 16

Week 16!  The weather is freezing and they are calling for snow this week, after the ice storm last week, which is no fun.  Hopefully the storm isn't too bad.  I hate driving in the snow.  The new job is going well so far.  There is a LOT to learn but I like that challenge.  So that's what's happening on the mundane front.  What is going on with the pregnancy this week?  

For baby
Over the next few weeks the baby is supposed to double in weight and grow longer.  Right now baby is about the size of an avocado, or about 4.5 inches long.  The head is held more upright, ears are moved up from the neck, and the eyes are moved around onto the front of his face.  The eyes are still fused closed, but they can now also detect light, so that's exciting.  Baby has started growing toenails and the heart is pumping about 25 quarts of blood each day.

For momma:

So, what's new in my world?  Overall, things are going well.  I'm dealing with some small breakouts, which are super lame, but otherwise nothing exciting is going on.  I want to find some pregnancy safe facial cleansers to see if that helps.  I've also started looking at pregnancy announcement ideas so that in the nearish future we can make a public post.  How exciting! 

Sunday, January 15, 2017

Week 15

Week 15 brings with it not only some continued growth for the little one, but a brand new job for me, which is terrifying and exciting all at the same time, so let's get started. What is going on this week?  

For baby
Baby is growing steadily a this point, and has reached the size of an orange or avocado.  Baby is looking more and more like a real, tiny proportioned human.  Ears are moving to the sizes of the head from the neck and eyes are moving from the sides of the head to the face.  Right now, baby is spending quality time practicing breathing, sucking, and swallowing.  Orion was also very entertained by the fact that the baby can now pee about every 30 minutes.  He giggled a lot when he learned that the baby is peeing inside my body.

For momma:

So, what's new in my world?  Well the constipation seems less this week (yay!) and I'm very grateful for that.  Otherwise, as I said in my latest Dr update, my blood pressure is staying in the normal range, my weight has continued to fall, which isn't a bad thing at all, and my body temperature is still riding a degree lower than normal.  I'm not quite as tired as I was during the first trimester, but I'm still definitely ready for bed by 10pm no matter what.  Overall, things are a-ok. 

Saturday, January 14, 2017

Dream #3

I haven't written down all of my dreams, but what I can tell you is that I haven't had any dreams yet about the actual pregnancy.  Instead, I'm having consistent dreams about sad or scary things that are vivid enough to stick with me and make me not want to go back to sleep.  I'm definitely ready for the nightmares to stop and the just weird to start.  Hopefully?  We'll see.  The last couple of nights I've been having dreams about Orion.  Two nights ago I had a dream that I was driving in a car with Orion and he was in his booster seat.  He was sitting up toward the edge of his seat so I told him to scoot back, and he did.  I then looked up in my mirror to see that his entire seat had collapsed and he was falling into the back of the car.  His arms and legs were sticking straight out, but he was being held by the seat belt across his neck.  I was terrified and instantly jumped and reached into the back seat to try to grab him and pull him forward.  Apparently I ACTUALLY jumped and reached in the real world as well because I slapped Seth upside his head and woke up to him yelling "What the hell was that for?"  :)

Last night's dream was more convoluted and strange.  Seth, Orion and I were on an airplane flying home from somewhere.  As we got closer to home, there was an announcement over the intercom that there was a big thunderstorm in Omaha so we couldn't land there so they were going to circle around until the storm cleared. I could see lightning through the plane windows and everyone was told to take their seats.  For some reason, Seth and I were sitting together, but Orion was several rows ahead of us. We all sat down, and I felt the plane take essentially a HUGE u-turn and suddenly our plane was flying in the wrong direction to get home.  We began to descend and eventually landed in the middle of a field, right in the center of a weird carnival.  We were all told to stay in our seats, but Orion snuck out of his and back to sit in my lap.  The lady beside us ran up and stole his seat.  So we sat there huddled together as these weird "carnies" paced up and down the rows making sure everyone was following instructions.  Through the windows I could see rows of carnival games and rides that were all broken down and turned off.  I tried to take pictures of some of the equipment with my cell phone, but one of the guys caught me and grabbed me, and that's when I woke up.

So really, none of these dreams are quite as gory as some of the dreams I've dealt with in the past, but they're still creepy and weird.  Who knows what my brain will think up next.

Thursday, January 12, 2017

3rd Doctor Appointment

This doctor's appointment was pretty quick in and out.  As always, I peed in a cup, but there was no blood work or fancy tests or anything along those lines.   My weight has continued to drop, so I'm down about 11 pounds since I got pregnant.  My blood pressure was 120/80 which is fine and my temperature is still sitting at about 97 degrees, which is why I continue to feel cold all the time.  The most exciting part was getting to hear the baby's heart beat.  It was definitely loud and clear this time and beating at a steady 149 bpm.  The next appointment is in a month, at 18 weeks.  They will do another blood draw that day for some additional tests.  At that point we will also schedule the next ultrasound, which  is the big anatomy scan.  It all seems to be going so quickly!